Saturday, October 31, 2009


Halloween night it seems as become a night to dress in slutty costumes and find people to flirt with. I spent this eve at work, then off to my local bar to hang with some friends where I did a small amount of flirting with a guy I know. He is a sweet guy, but not relationship material. He has a way though of making you feel like you are special at that moment. I like that feeling and it makes me miss getting out there more.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

africa hot

The last couple of days have been ever so hot here. Like Africa hot. I am not one who enjoys the heat in case you couldn't tell. My sweet lil house also has no insulation or AC so when it gets hot outside it gets HOT inside. I don't sleep well when it is hot, not that I sleep so well the rest of the time, but still. I have this odd quirk of liking it to be cold when I sleep, so when it is hot I have a hard time sleeping. Part of the problem is that I like a blanket over me, it is part of my little routine...and when it is hot it is not possible to have a cover on without sweating.
I used to have a comfy couch in the living room that enabled me to sleep under the window fan when it got this hot. My new couch is comfy for sitting & short naps, but all night it would be hard on the back for sure. Hopefully this bit of heat will be passing quickly, I for one am ready for sweater weather!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

did you ever?

Have you ever played this game?
One person asks "did you ever?" and you respond if you have.
It can be a silly drinking game, one in which to get to know people better or just plan strange. I remember playing it in college while dating a boy and learning some things about him that made me not want to be dating him anymore.
I don't miss dating, but I do miss some of the good things about the act of being in the dating world. The flutters you get inside when you have your first kiss with a boy you like. The point which you get comfortable enough with the one you are dating to stay in and watch a movie in your pjs with no make up. Having them meet your friends for the first time & waiting to hear if they approve?
I watch the good and bad of my friends relationships and most of the time I am ever so happy being single. There are times though that I wish for those feelings again. Then there are times that I feel like being in a relationship would make me lose some of my fiercely fought for independence.
I think back fondly on my past and the men & boys who made my love life so interesting. These people helped shape who I am today, for good or bad. They made me want to not settle and date someone just for the sake of being a couple. They gave me confidence in myself to make choices that might hurt at the time, but are best in the long run. They are in the past for a reason, but they have not been forgotten.

Monday, October 12, 2009


I woke up feeling not quite 100% and debated finding someone to work my shift. Then I got a phone call from my dad telling me of the loss of one of our family. A sad and senseless accident that took away a daughter, sister, mother and cousin from our family. The sky is grey and cloudy today and suits my mood. I have calls into a couple of my co-workers as I honestly don't think I could fake the happiness I would need tonight for my shift.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


This week I had my 20th high school reunion. I debated whether or not to go in the first place as most of my group from hs choose not to attend. In the end I decided I was interested in seeing the changes of the people with whom I went to school.
Back in the day I had a small group of friends that I hung out with at my school, but I never was into any activities or even dated anyone who went to my school.
At the last minute I decided to take my best friend, with whom I have been having some problems of late, as we knew many of the same people and I thought it would be a fun way for us to be together once again. It was a great evening in the end, though I will bring much comfier shoes in the future for such events!
I saw and talked to a few people from hs that I was interested in catching up with and also some that to be honest I didn't even remember. We took silly pictures, danced and drank way too much wildcat juice. All in all it was a great evening and I look forward to the 30th.