Thursday, January 28, 2010

um, yeah

so I basically suck at being online enough to blog on a regular basis...I have 4 half finished blogs saved from the past month and with all my free time of late have been working on making them complete.
Why do I have so much free time you ask? oh well it has to do with not taking care of myself enough and getting much sicker than a person needs to. I am looking at a 6 week period of healing and under orders to rest as much as possible. um, we shall see how that works for me.

Friday, January 22, 2010

friends come and go

I have been sad this past month since I got news that my best friend was moving out of state.
I know we will still talk on the phone & touch base through the lovely social media of facebook, but it is still a big change. She is moving to Montana of all places...and I do get why. Finances, family and a need for change. All valid and to be honest I left first and shouldn't be upset that she is following my lead of change. I never gave any thought to my friends when I made my choices to move, be it from where I live now to go back to San Diego for college or my decision to return here after college.
I know that I will make the effort to go see her, it is just that the ease of seeing her is being taken away. She currently lives in the town in which we went to hs, where my mom still lives. I could combine seeing my family and hers in one trip that was a reasonable drive to do.
I will be going down to see her for one last hurrah sometime in the next month before the big move. A chance to run around to some of our fave places and make even more lasting & lovely memories. I will savor those as things from this point on will change, only the future will tell what lies ahead, but I know that she will remain in it although much further away.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

new year new start

I plan on focusing in on making me into a better person this year.
Now this is not about resolutions, such as losing weight or getting a better job or out of debt....though these things might occur.
Rather it is about finding what makes me a happier, better person.
I want to look at the glass as half full, not half empty.
I want to feel as if I am the one in control of my life, not others.
I want friends and family around me that support me, helps me celebrate all of the good in my life & theirs. and gives a hand or shoulder in the bad times.
I wish for brighter times and good memories to come from them.
I wish this for myself and those I love surrounding me.
I plan on making changes that might make some around me question, however it is my life to live and I want it to be the best one I can be living.
It is time to purge myself of the people who doubt me or bring me down.
Purging my house of items that have no use or just not used is also in the cards.
Reading many of the books upon my shelves and working on my garden are on this list also.
So many things and so much time to attempt them....