So, in my massive cleaning undertaking I found a huge amount of photos from the past decade. I worked at the same restaurant job for most of it, 2002-2008, and had some amazing times that were over shadowed by how bad it was at the end. Finding these pics made me remember the better times, the fabulous people I met through there and the fun experiences.

I posted almost 200 pics on FB as many of my old crew is on there & I felt they would enjoy it also...and they did.

The funniest thing to come of it for me though was having a couple of people ask me to take off a certain pic of them as they felt they looked fat or ugly in it. Got to say while I did that for them, if I did that with every pic of me from the past 2 decades I did not like

there might be about 5 pics total.

Why is it that we are never satisfied with ourselves. We always want to be skinnier, have a better job, nicer house etc.

I am trying to live in the now. Be happy with the things I have, including this body of mine. Is it in the best shape it could be? no. Am I working on making it better, thus me better by being a healthier, and possibly happier me? yes.

One thing I will say is that regardless of what I weighed in these pics I found, I was happy in them. That means more to me at this point in my life than anything else so I am letting go of all the rest!

I am...

confused, tired, happy, sad, angry, emotional, crazy, joyful, amazed...I am everything.
I haven't written in the past couple of weeks as I have had so much going on. I got another part time job...woohoo! Between the two jobs I work almost 25-30 hours...haha. I am happy to have a job I enjoy once more as it has been a while. It is working in a used bookstore that I have been going to for almost 20 years. Fun and not mentally hard, but it is much more sociable than the other part time gig. Makes me appreciate what things are good about working, but it is making me not like my other job much also. So, therefore the hunt is on for a serving or bar tending gig to get the social aspect I crave & also to get me back to making more money. I feel like I just can't get ahead and I really dislike just getting by. Trying to decide what and where I want to be in my life in the next year. My long term goal (besides just being happy) is to be out of debt and in better shape by the time I am 40 ( got just over 2 years for that!)
Having some very strange health stuff going on also, but hoping to be told at the doc this week that it is all normal strange stuff...we shall see. Not much to say really, just thought I would update on the small things...

this is what I am talking about

So, I just got a call from my friend A who got me in the door for the part time bookkeeping job that I have. She called to ask if I was free on Thursday as the owner would like me to come in, learn about other office work ( posting invoices etc ) like we had once talked about. I had mentioned to the owners when I saw them the other day that I had not found anything else right now in my job hunt, thus would be happy to pick up any extra hours they could give me. Guess my go-to attitude helped as I am getting just that. This job has the potential to turn into much more if I can manage to keep being patient and see what unfolds. I won't even lie that this pretty much made my day! Now if I get good news from the government cheese tomorrow then life will be even more amazing.