did you ever?

Have you ever played this game?
One person asks "did you ever?" and you respond if you have.
It can be a silly drinking game, one in which to get to know people better or just plan strange. I remember playing it in college while dating a boy and learning some things about him that made me not want to be dating him anymore.
I don't miss dating, but I do miss some of the good things about the act of being in the dating world. The flutters you get inside when you have your first kiss with a boy you like. The point which you get comfortable enough with the one you are dating to stay in and watch a movie in your pjs with no make up. Having them meet your friends for the first time & waiting to hear if they approve?
I watch the good and bad of my friends relationships and most of the time I am ever so happy being single. There are times though that I wish for those feelings again. Then there are times that I feel like being in a relationship would make me lose some of my fiercely fought for independence.
I think back fondly on my past and the men & boys who made my love life so interesting. These people helped shape who I am today, for good or bad. They made me want to not settle and date someone just for the sake of being a couple. They gave me confidence in myself to make choices that might hurt at the time, but are best in the long run. They are in the past for a reason, but they have not been forgotten.

changes

I made a decision that this life I live is pretty darn good, but like most people

I feel there are many things I could change.

I have always said that if you don't like something....then change it.

So, on that note I am going to make an effort to improve the areas in which I feel I could use it. I love my friends and where I live, but the dating pool here is more like a wading pool. I also have a long list of house & garden projects that I had lots of time for with my semi unemployed state, but very little money. Thanks to my new job this is changing, happily I look forward to doing some of this grunt work as it is fun for me.

The next big thing is my health. I need to place more of a priority on my eating & exercise habits. I have a goal of being in better a financial & physical place by the time I am 40.

(this gives me 2 years to reach my final goals)

My short term health goal is to be eating more fruits & veggies, less processed foods and to lose 10% of my body weight. I am so not going to be posting my #'s on this blog.

(you guys can feel free to cheer me on, but you don't need to actually know my weight,lol)

so, here is to starting to better the rest of my life...